It's been a while since I've done one of these. I just really have been dropping the ball on this kind of thing (which is kind of funny in my mind, but probably not yours, since nobody would think about the reference to dropping the ball like I do...Stupid mind). But I need to do this because I just am not feeling my best right now and this will help. Basically... I am a dumbass. Oh yeah, big surprise there. Especially in the social sense of things. Which sucks so much. I have realized how terrible it is before, but it never really bothered me until now. After totally embarrassing myself (I'm not gonna give details... I currently don't like myself for it), I realized how this is like a legitimate problem. Like, if I keep acting this way, I'm never gonna be able to do anything with my life. I mean, being socially intelligent is just as good as being good at anything else. I mean, I didn't really start thinking too much about how this is extremely important until I took Psychology and they looked at social interaction. As much as I really want to blame this on my lack of a social life in elementary school and stuff, or the fact that I was advised that I don't need friends to be successful (which was a total lie) I won't, because I seemingly blame everything and anything bad in my life on someone or something else. I need to stop doing that. I hate sounding like a Debby Downer, but that's just how it goes.
I also realize that I take peoples' comments that they playfully say way too seriously. Like, I don't even know why. It could be the fact that I got made fun of in school a lot when I was younger and me being the "nice" (that's my way of saying soft) guy I was (and still am), I just kind of took it and went on with my life, not really responding to whatever they had to say. And the whole being soft thing is just something that hasn't gone away. Like, I just need to grow a backbone or something and learn how to deal with things.
I guess I could turn all of this whining of mine that is on my blog (which I am allowed to do, because it is my blog) and turn it into some New Year's resolutions:
1. Stop feeling so sorry for myself
2. Stop being a bitch
3. Stand up for myself more
4. Learn how to not take peoples' shit.
I am done now. Hope that all 4 of you that read this enjoy my ADD inspired blog post and have a Happy New Year.
